Was suppose to do math just now but ended up drawing up a long overdue study plan.Spent like nearly 1hr 30min to finish it.A detailed and rigid plan it is for the last 30 odd days till the start of A levels.Hectic and tiring one it is as well. I know its going to take more than all the determination and discipline that i have left in me now to stick fully to this one hell of a plan. For the sake of a bright future, I will do what it takes I guess. I have to do it for all the sacrifices that i have made, all the ppl that I have wrongly neglected in the past months for this supposedly "more noble" cause.Thy will not allow all the sacrifices go to waste and will never even think of letting you down.3 As and A in GP come next March is the least I can do to redeem my sins.No more a believer in gift and talent I'm, at least for now. A more down to Earth approach will be adopted for this final phase.The new tactic will be sheer dog-like hard work till 24 Nov 2005. =)
A disappointing prelim of BEE and B3 for GP. The only sliver lining is I managed to break out of the 50m barrier in major exams for math and very nearly for chem also if not for bad handwriting in paper 3.As for bio and GP is total disappointment.I have turned the tide before at O levels, I will just have to perform yet another moment of magic once more.
*carrying a bloody smile
~Nil Sine Labore
Rejuvenated
It has been awhile since I felt so relax and easy on a weekday afternoon.No worries bout notes not read, prelim papers not done etc.Just laze around in the house on a rainy afternoon, reading newspaper, listening to the radio and playing FM with a sip from my cup of hot chocolate cappucino from time to time and doing literally nothing productive for the entire day. This is life man =)
Ironically, an unproductive day like today will be beneficial for my final lap of the prepartion for A levels which will resume pretty soon.I more or less rejuvenated from all the brain-sapping and tiring studying of the past few weeks.All raring to go again soon.Gonna to go at a faster and more ruthless pace for revision.I shall not speak too much too soon as there are still couple more days to the start of the final struggle.For now,I will rest and recuperate from the exhaustion suffered during the pre-prelims days. "
¥ð®§¬O?¤F¨«§ó?ªº¸ô" How true indeed..
My pillar of strength..haha..you guys must be guessing who/what my pillar my strength is right ?Will keep you all in dark for a few more days only but if you are impatient like keith you can ask me lor and I may tell you.Give you all a clue..its a person =)
To Golgi city FC players, lets whop their aSS tmr!!
Last but not least, *HappY 43rd birthday mummY!! I love u always*!
~Nil Sine Labore
Another quote as usual
"You win things as a team. When I was young I had to learn that as I wanted to showboat at times and sometimes I just wanted to please the crowd.
"But in this game you learn quickly that you need to be efficient, and to be good for the team. Sometimes you might think it makes you look bad individually, but you need to do it for the team."---Ces Fabregas
This quote from my idol will not come at a better time. With friday's clash of the titans just round the corner, Bio-chem VS Phy-chem challenge trophy. So bio-chem peeps, its not the time to impress and show off your individual talents. Grind out the result we MUST!! Even at the expense of
abit of style and flair.I used the word "abit" hor so dun say I'm like the gay ChelsKi team cuz I'm a diehard and hardcore fan of Arsene Wenger.
*think I found my pillar of strength =)
~Nil Sine Labore
I need a miracle
"I am realistic - I expect miracles." Wayne Dyer
Just 3 more papers to the end of Prelims.2 MCQ papers and 1 bio option paper.I really need a miracle to even come close my targets for prelim and I expect me to bestow on me too =) To be frank, I dun really deserve a miracle judging on the amount of efforts that I put in.I didn't try my best as I have promised myself both during the exam and the mugging.
65% of my best for Math and Chemistry.I really did work my socks off for these 2 subjects k ?Did like 4 full prelim papers for each subject and was hoping for "acceptable" grades for these 2 subjects. But guess its still not enuff =(
49% of my best for GP.It was an early paper so had plenty of time to prepare for it.I spent hrs on globalissues.org to memorise the facts and read thru some model essays just like the day before.More can be done I'm sure. Spending 1hr on the straits times has become a daily routine for me.
22% of my best for Biology.Zero papers completed.Only spent the weekend reading the textbook and notes.Dun even think I deserve to pass.Ironically, I wont be suprise if I do better for my biology compared to the other 2 A level subjects.This is just how screwed I'm now.
Recently, my life is becoming more and more ironic.I have been trying my best to movitate the mates around me to work hard and acheive their goals but deep down inside me, I'm fighting a losing battle to the "happy go lucky" me.The thought of giving up occurs to me 10 times more often compared to 3 weeks ago.With my confidence and ego already heavily battered by the Prelims. An embarassing and swift defeat looks certain. Desperate moments like this, i have to admit that i really do need someone(s) to keep me going till the finish line and beyond.Someone(s) who can keep the the drive in me burning and push me to my limits.I can work alone no more I'm afraid.I dread running this marathon alone.
A long long journey till the A levels beckons..
~Nil Sine Labore
My sassy gal
1.Dont ask her to be feminine.
2.Dont let her drink over 3 glasses.
3.She will beat someone.
4.At a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice.
5.If she hits you, act like it hurts.If it hurts, act like it doesnt.
6. On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class, she will like it alot.
7.Make sure you learn fencing and squash.
8.Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes.
9. If she say she will kill you, dont take it too lightly.
10. Finally, she likes to write.Encourage her
Ring a bell ?If not too bad! Beg me and I may tell ya =P
~If we were destined to meet, we would by chance meet somewhere again.
The VS days
Yf shit u..why must you remind me of the good old days in your blog entry ? But seriously its damn touching.I almost cried after reading it then no mood to mug for stanford for whole of yesterday.So now, I also want to give my personal account of my illustrious VS career as well. If i do blog about our "timetable" of the yester years it will be the same as yf's entry so I will do sumthing different i guess.
I think right..my greatest acheivment in my life so far is that I got to know a bunch of buddies in VSNP. No offence to the great frens that I made in MJC.Ppl like eng, keith, anand, wig, stuck, luthfi, den just to name a few..you ppl really make my day in MJC and I know I can always count on you ppl.
Anyway back to the point, thruout the 4 years of "gruelling" and "vigorous" trainings in VSNP, it bonded all of us together maybe not all lah but at least the core of the squad of at least 12 of us.The long hours we spent together in the NP room playing daidee and carom,playing soccer at the twin basketball court or simply chilling out for long hours together.I know this may sound gay but these are the moments that I really cherish. Although nowadays we dun get to meet up as much as before, but some how or rather we still manage to meet up once in a while for soccer,LAN gaming and chill out like the past despite our packed schedule.Most importantly, we mug out together quite frequently for the past 2 weeks and it is productive I have to say. Everytime when we meet up, the feeling is good as old, still so close and brotherly.I can chat you all on anything under the sun and share my problems without worrying bout this and that.Although we had our fair share of arguments and disputes in the past but they never last more than a day.And I'm dead sure that you guys will be there if I do need any help(except in DOTA games).I really hope this fellowship will last as long as it can last and I will do what it takes to keep it going.
*A toast to the VSNP Armageddon batch! and all the best for our A levels and hope we can all reach our respective goals in life.
Last but not least, to quote from yf's blog
"Frankly I could regret a lot of things in my life. I would live twice if given the choice. But 2 things I hold endearing to my heart, decisions I would uphold even if the world has changed. Firstly is entering VS, secondly would be to join NPCC and getting to know the laddies." So do I dude. I had zero regrets in rejecting mr ho at sec 1 for VSNP.
~Nil sine Labore
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Finally got a tagboard up on my blog!haha..all thanks to Jie wei.I know I can always count on a victorian to get the job done.So my dear frenz do tag ok ? =)
"If I died, I would die happy because I was doing what I wanted to do. How many people could say that ?"- Terry Fox
A little bit of Mr Terry Fox.He was dignosed with osteogenic sarcoma 28 years ago with only 15% chance of surviving. Despite that, he planned to run 42 km a day to reach his goal of running the breadth of Canada which is 8530km long to raise funds for cancer research.He started his marathon on April 121 1980. In the end, he managed to cover 5374km in 143 days before the spread of cancer forced him to stop. He passed away on June 28 1981 cuz the cancer has spread to his lungs. This Sunday, people in the world will be running for the sake of cancer research and in memory of this great man.
60-70 years down the road, i wish i can say what Mr Fox said 20 years ago and die as a happy man because I did what I wanted to do with my life =)
~Nil Sine Laboure
The lone star
Spotted a damn bright unidentified object in the Pasir ris sky few min ago.I observed it for like 10min and it still remains stationary hence I hypothesis that it is not a plane or any man-made flying object.But like 5min later, it just disappeared lol..so is it a star ?or planet ?or watever? Can any astronomy experts out there please enlighten me ? *No keith, i not refering to you!!plz return to your seat thank you..
Anyway, that bright object made me think alot bout my life again.I also not very sure wat i was thinking bout though.Numerous random thoughts just ran thru my head and its hard to pen it down in my blog you see.Will try and sort out my thoughts later tonight and maybe write bout it later.BUt i will give a sneak preview haha..Here goes..
After a long and extensive depolarisation and repolarisation of my neurones in my head, I have come up with this quote..
"You can only see the stars when it is dark enough or if the star is just too bright for you to miss."
Looks very literal huh ?This is the type of thought-provoking statements that seperates the deep thinkers and those ermm ermm.. =)
Tmr got math paper 2 then got break on thursday so can watch champions league YAY! Will give an analysis of the 1st half of Prelims on Friday. With my stanford dream already vapourised on monday, I have got nothing to lose now so will just give it my best shot for the remaing papers and hopefully salvage some pride and marks as well.I only got myself to blame for such a diasterous showing for this prelims.I didn't worked hard enough for it and I promise I will work hell lot harder for my As.
~Nil Sine Laoure
Backlash!
Well..this entry is going to be bout me and my academic career and stuffs so if these things turn you ultimately off, please alt-F4 and cya again =)
OK..I to begin off, I really think i'm an underacheiver for the past few years. Why do i say so ?PSLE score of 255..supposedly top 10% of the cohort at 12 years old.Now ? At 18 years old,a mediocre student at an ordinary JC with sub standard results. Need i say more ?Ppl may argue that PSLE was a fluke and not a good gauge of one's ability blar blar blar..But i seriously beg to differ not just because of myself but a collective evidence of my many students who did very well at PSLE continue to excel in their secondary and tertiary education throughout the years.
I mean if they can do it why cant I(we if applicable) do it as well? Its definately not VS's fault for my own academical de-valuation.I'm dead sure it is my questionable desire and hunger that catalysed my own downfall.I have to admit that in my sec sch days, sch life is like a bed of roses, everything is so smooth and enjoyable.It has sumhow inhibited my inner ambitions.I was like of shocked now when i remembered i was only targeting to get L1R5 of 20 and below and hope to get into a JC with my O level results.I mean that is so not me man! =(
In the end didn't do very well for O level, got posted to MJC.Blar blar blar..fastforward to 2-3 weeks before prelims.Maybe it is the competitive nature of JC life or just this JC or my class..anyway who cares which is the one!? Anway,I get to see ppl mugging in sch like ****** even though it is still weeks from the exams.This common sight that i see in sch regularly has induced a fresh rush of desire and hunger in me.Never in my life in the past 18 years have I really thought about my future.All along, I have been living in my own world"Dun worry la deh, everything will turn out fine in the end.If its nto fine, its not the end." Now i know its not true anymore.Things will never work out if I dun work for it.I immediately got down to work.Althought my mugging journey didn't started very smoothly but with the help and motivation from frens i got it on track eventually. Drafted my targets and dreams and set them in stone soon after.The rest is history i guess.Although i took a dip in form in the last 2 days but i'm confident i will recover by sat and get my dream back in sight.Will I ?
Now with only 2 days to go before the start of Prelims, i can ill afford to waste anymore time on procastinating and other non-productive stuffs so decided to come here to blog and remind myself and others of that very fact.
After going 1 big round, my point being I think my "life" only started 2.5 weeks ago.Only till then, I know what I want in my life.Mind you, I dun wan to be an ordinary guy who just going slog his life in the office and bring hom e peanuts.I know I'm destined for bigger things and I'm damn sure I got the potential to do so.Now its the time to fufil my destiny.2 days to my 1st hurdle and 2 mths to my final test.Althought it maybe kind of late to discover the need to study hard now but still, being late is always better than never. So ppl, beware!The real me is just rolling out.As an old saying goes,a beast is at its most dangerous when it is wounded.So better watch out! The new and real me is born! =)
Hope this entry can inspire other sleeping giants(you know who you are) to "wake up" and start dreaming big and do your best to fufil them cuz you are destined to.
~Nil Sine Labore
Follow Through- Gavin Degraw
Follow Through- Gavin Degraw
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet
So, since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
You to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I'm holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So, since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
You to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So, since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
(For) you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you'll have to follow through
With every word you say
An I, all I really want is you (For) you to stick around
I'll see everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
Nice song huh ? =)
~Nil sine laboure
Inspiration Quotes
“Most of the things worth doing in the world have been declared impossible before they were done.”— L. Brandeis
"Your imagination is your preview of life's coming attractions.”— Albert Einstein
"If you don't have a dream, you will never have a dream come true."- Chen yifei
Last but not least,our fav quote for the grp of us(ccl,yf,hock,me)
"To win a lottery, you must first buy a ticket"-Chen yifei
And we literally really did.We bought a toto ticket for this thursday's draw with all our fav numbers on it.The prize money is enuff and pay for all our Stanford fees and one gay boy's NAFA sch fees =)
~Nil sine Laboure
First step to reaching my dream
Tmr is our GP prelim liao..I have neglected this subject since the start of my JC life but i always pass..haha..But till recently, I final realise the importance of GP. "You need an A in GP by Prelim to go to *******" Almost everyone around me is saying that.I was like OMG..and my beloved Stanford is of the university that is looking out for GP.So, I dedicated the whole of today to give my GP essay a final boost. After surfing the web for the much needed resources afternoon, I have decided to attempt questions on War & Terrorism and Globalisation or Sports.I will never ever be a kuku like before and attempt those kuku questions and get kuku marks esp with so much at stack now!!
Today i also very happy cuz I "consulted" my mum about my tertiary education and of cuz i told my dream.And guess wat ? She say she will sponsor me the US$45,000 per year sch fees if I get in leh!!(provided they want me)YEAH..now i'm even more motivated to mug seh..An evidence will be completing ACJC math prelim paper 2 in less than 3hrs and did pretty well i guess =) But like of sad that there is only one more week left to prelims and i'm still not very confident that my results can match my expectations.Too late to regret also so will just make do with things and mug like a dog for the next week! ;)
Thats all I guess for now..got to go now to pack my bag and later got "I got a date with a vampire 3" think i going to watch..haha. Tmr mugging out with my stanford wannabe ccl at airport and maybe book our tickets 2 years in advance to California haha..Last but not least, may the force be with all tmr and we will all acheive our targets for tmr's GP prelims k? *special and additional luck to Eng..this time your GP sure clear!
"If you want to soar the skies like an eagle, do not hang around with chickens because chickens cant fly."- unknown.
~Nil Sine Laboure
A fading dream..
Back to blogging at last!!! =) It has been and goNna be a stressful and critical period for us all as the Prelims and A levels just round the corner. So i decided to turn to blogging to let out all my thoughts and feelings. I will try and update on a regular basis..hehe
Well..today is a bad bad day for me.It started off with a PS by you when we suppose to go out and mug but then you say you lazy to go out.And also,the drive and desire that have pushed me to mug like no tmr for the past week deserted me suddenly.For once in this entire week, i had an afternoon nap from 2pm to 6pm.It has been a while since i had such a long rest in the afternoon. Its after this nap, that "woke" me up from my Stanford dream.I was thinking to myself..3As and A for GP by Prelims which is less than 240 hrs away..is it really a realistic goal for me ?I mean I'm a student who is so used to failing thru-out my MJ career and i have never ever tasted a B before in all the major exams in MJC let alone an A.This is when I began to doubt my own ability to perform such miracle in 2 weeks..I know i have done it before at 'O' level and i keep reminding myself that i can do it again this time for Prelims and A level.But this time, it just wont go into my head =( As a result, a total waste of my afternoon.
But things got better at night, after motivational msn chat and sms from my beloved frens =) *points at yf and gN. Thanks for believing in me even when i dun believe in myself!It sure did ignite some drive in me for later part of the night.I managed to push myself to do 10 ACJC paper 1 math questions till pass midnight.
Althought My Stanford dream is still a far-fetch and distant goal,but I swear i will mug my hardest and give my very best for Prelims for myself and for you ppl ;)
~Nil Sine Labore
