My life.
8 days to A levels which means 25 more days to freedom I can really do what I want to do.
Things to do after A level(25 Nov to Jan 2006)
- Eat,live,drink,breathe soccer.(at least once every 3 days)
- Dominate the world using Chelsea in FM with my gay pals.
- Go on 1 or 2 overseas trips before Jan with my gay pals.
- Chill out and daidee with gay pals.
- Read up on Chinese medicine.
- Study for SAT (at most 2 days).
(Jan 2006-April 2006)
- Eat,live,drink,breathe soccer.(at least once every 3 days)
- Go holiday with aunt.(hopefully S. Africa)
- Learn web-designing
- Set up my own financially profitable website.(Looking for investors)
- Read up more on Chinese medicine.
- Work for extra cash.
I got a new ambition already. I wanna be a Chinese physician =) Going to chiong for the 5 year double degree offered by NTU to fuifil my ambition. Their average intake is 3A if I'm not wrong. So gotta pray and work real hard for my As to get my 3A.
A physician well versed in Chinese and western medicinal knowledge giving consultations in rural Africa for free is the ideal future that I would like to paint for myself in 10 years from now.
~Nil Sine Labore
Dream team
This entry will only make sense to football fans. Today, I will introduce you all to my very own Chelski FC starting eleven.
Manager: Sir Lee YiXin
Substitute bench:
- Chua Chuen Long(capt) A cult figure among the fans and players alike at stamford bridge. Given his talent, he can play in any position. He is one player who can rally his troops to victory when the chips are down.
- Kenneth Chong. An up and coming centreback in the mould of Rio Ferdinand. Blessed with great pace and acceleration.
- Frank Lampard.
- Jose Antonio Reyes. The most handsome soccer player in London
- Hernan Crespo. My fav player in winning eleven.
Thats all for now..cant wait for the our FM marathon so I can assemble my dream team.
~Nil Sine Labore
No choice
I will remain positive and patient. I see no alternative.
~Nil Sine Labore
I'm not ready
Struggling in vain to keep my spirits up for studying today. Wasted yet another afternoon of productive hours today. As D day looms nearer, the more nervous I become. I'm really afraid of not doing well for A levels. Although I may seem confident on the outside, but let me tell you, its just a brave front. I'm really damn scared deep inside. It is a battle that I can ill afford to lose. I dare not even imagine the consequences of getting AAB and below come March.
I must not be defeated
"Fear is the path to the Dark Side... Fear leads to anger... anger leads to hate... hate leads to suffering..."Master yoda, star wars
*fearful of the future
~Nil Sine Labore
Last shot at goal
16 days to decide my fate..
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
Cuz opportunity comes once in a lifetime.
Look, if you had one shot or one opportunity.
To seize everything you ever wanted in one moment.
Would you capture it or just let it slip?
I'm going to grab this chance with both hands and score a dramatic last min winner. Such a faiytale ending will be greatly appreciated for the final lap of my JC life.
The upcoming chapter of my Life:8th April 2006 (sat) at 12:45pm, BMTC SCH 1
-Knn..most of my frens January go in liao.
-4 mths of loneliness and idling awaits.
-Slack or Play or Rot or Work ?
*Looking forward to March/April 2006
~Nil Sine Labore
Problematic time
17 days remaining..So much to cover in such a little time.How to do well ? Although revision has been going on quite smoothly, 60% similar to my ideal plan but as the saying goes, "the more you prepare, the more unprepared you will find yourself to be." How true indeed. After doing every practice paper, I will be like "wTF!..why so careless ?" or "***** like tat also dunno..TMD" or a classic excuse of "I knew it!"
Well, enough of whining because only losers whine.I hate losers esp when I'm one of them. As the final 2 weeks approaches, this calls for a new strategy to maximise my time. My new gameplan: Keep pushing and pick myself up immediately after each fall.
For now, gonna take a break for 18hrs by chilling overnight at the airport with my buddies.This crucial 18 hrs will be a pit stop for me to regroup and recharge before the do or die period.
*Only almost there
~Nil Sine Labore
Dreaming big again
"To dream anything, that you want to dream, that is the beauty of the human mind."--Mr Sung( my civic tutor)
*There is nothing worse than being ordinary, victorian is sumthing more."-Sanjay( outstanding victorian from 2001-2005)
The ambitious and lofty dreams are back once more. But this time, these dreams will stay for good.Backed by a good 20 days of hardwork and hopefully a broad smile from lady luck, my dreams definately can become a reality.
04S202, I think I will miss you all because I'm already starting to.
Happy birthday to Anand s/o gopalkrishna ^!* Dun play play liao hor..we must get 3 As together with Eng and own the class leh! =P
*A sign of things to come ?
~Nil Sine Labore
Too big to leave behind
Disappointment and loss are a part of every life. Many times we can put such things behind us and get on with the rest of our lives. But not everything is amenable to this approach. Some things are too big or too deep to do this, and we will have to leave important parts of ourselves behind if we treat them in this way. These are the places where wisdom begins to grow in us. It begins with suffering that we do not avoid or rationalize or put behind us. It starts with the realization that our loss, whatever it is, has become a part of us and has altered our lives so profoundly that we cannot go back to the way it was before.
Every great loss demands that we choose life again. We need to grieve in order to do this. The pain and loss we have not grieved over will always stand between us and our lives. When we don’t grieve, a part of us becomes caught in the past.
Grieving is not about forgetting. Grieving allows us to heal, to remember with love rather than pain. It is a sorting process. One by one you let go of the things that are gone and you mourn for them. One by one you take hold of the things that have become a part of who you are and build again and move on with your life.
^The above is just my two cents worth on the way home last night coupled with some research as well.Guys, its time to move on and stop dwelling in the past.^
*Letting go cuz things will never be the same again
~Nil Sine Labore
Empty promises
Promises are met to be kept not broken.
If you cant keep them dun make them easily.
I know dun usually scold the F word in sms.
Its not the first time I'm sure.
Thats why I'm so really really disappointed and pissed.
Excuses will always be excuses to me.
So scoff off and leave me alone.
Public apology
I dun mean to swear at you.I really cant help it dude.Overwhelmed by anger I was and you know me, I'm never myself when I'm mad. Su-mi-ma-sem =(
Dead tired after an afternoon and evening of soccer.I really take my hat off to luther, denzil and johnsen. Yes, they may not the most skillful and gifted players around.But they really ran his socks off for the team.Always chasing and closing down anyone with the ball. This is definately the main reason why we managed to defeat more "talented" teams today and with a clean sheet for like 3 games running. This sort of selfless workmanship plus a couple of moment of magic from yours truely,the future of this team sure looks promising.
Is talent a god's gift or a curse ?GP essay anyone ?
Grace happy 18th birthday 30min in advance*!" May your dream come true!
*feeling the wrath of the dark side
~Nil Sine Labore
A beautiful night sky
May a star light my path.
It sucks to fight alone in the dark
even with my invincible golden butter knife.
*Adoring the stary night sky of Pasir Ris.
~Nil Sine Labore
9 million bicycles
There are
9 million bicycles in Beijing
That's a fact, It's a thing we can't deny
Like the fact that I will love you till I die.
We are
12 billion light years from the edge,
That's a guess, No-one can ever say it's true
But I know that I will always be with you.
I'm warmed by the fire of your love everyday
So don't call me a liar,
Just believe everything that I say
There are
six billion people in the world
More or less and it makes me feel quite small
But you're the one I love the most of all
Food for thought: A billion in America is 1,000,000,000. In UK, a billion is 1,000,000,000,000. And so, it is 1,000 times harder to be a billionaire in UK compared to in America. =)
~Nil Sine Labore
Baaa
"Always think about what you can do for others and not what others can do for you."
This is one of the many life lessons that I picked up during my VS days.I'm proud to annouce that I still live by this principle till now and will go on to for the rest of my life. The reason I'm bringing it up is because of many selfish acts that I have observed around me recently.In fact, I'm truely disgusted by such acts.I know its a critical period for all of us now, but this does not give anyone the right to be selfish.Knowing something that your fren dunno and not explaining to him is a total sin. Pretending not to know when he asked you and you pass him off with a lame excuse is an unpardonable crime as well. Another scenerio, I dun wanna study with ****** because he is not very smart and he cannot teach me.
Is this what friends are really for ?Can someone please enlighten me further. Does it really make you losers feel any better if you know your friend is academically inferior to you ?Or do you feel relieved because you got one less competitor for a place in University ? To me, it is an obligation to help my friends even at the expense of my own precious time to a certain extent(yup..not totally cuz I'm not that noble yet). So peeps, my handphone is on and open to all calls or sms 24hrs a day! So no need to be so ke qi with me ok ?Be like Mr Eng Yisheng hor because my call log is always dominated by this small kid.Be it I call him or he call me, its all the same. =)
Dumped the old butter knife in the old valley I have at last.The familiar driven and ambitious commander in chief is once again back in the picture.Revived not by the mysterious white wizard, but brought to sense by the ugly nature of the human race I have. Normal service has finally resumed in the 4 barracks of mine.
Bring on the Orcs in a month's time and I will sly them all with my new golden butter knife.
*Can you hear the war cry ?
~Nil Sine Labore
War is coming
The gate of Mordor has opened.Unleashing millions of bloodthirsty orc warriors into middle Earth.On the march they already are.Unlike the La Grande Armée of yf, the Royal Army of yx is still recovering from the close victory against the forest trolls.Despite the fact that the battle is already over for nearly a month, the Royal Army is still suffering from the weariness of the previous battle.The spirit of the camp is miserable.The confidence of the army has taken a severe blow from the rampaging trolls.The army looks odd on to recover in time against the orcs horde. The situation is not helped by the long training hours in school which does nothing but increase the physical burden on the troops. Although signs of recovery do surface from time to time, but its just not enough as the Orcs are alot more powerful and cunning than the trolls.The army has to be alot stronger and more prepared than before.
Despite the tense situation,the commander in chief remains dormant on his throne still clutching on to the blood-stained butter knife. Waiting, still waiting for the white wizard to lift the spell.A fully motivated and confident commander in chief of the old is much needed to guide the Royal Army to record a historic victory against the Orcs. In the meantime, the orcs are closing the distance between them and the base camp.With haste they are moving indeed.
*On course to recovery but I afraid its is just not fast enough.
~Nil Sine Labore
On the way down
Breaking down slowly but surely.
Mentally as well as physically.
The pillar doesn't seems to be working its magic.
It seems like that the pillar is counting on me for support.
With that, I can ill afford to fall and crumble.
Already struggling to motivate myself nowadays.
Now with so much load and pressure piling on my shoulders, I dont know how much longer can I last.
I'm still a kid at heart afterall.
Is aid on the way ?
*My sore throat is killing me
~Nil sine Labore
