Even darkness must pass. A new day will come

The 2nd phase of NS

9 weeks BMT is over in a blink of an eye. The one week break passed hell lot faster man. Come Monday will be the time to report to my new home, Pasir Leba camp, school of infantry specialist (SISPEC). Many people find sergeants as half fuck soldiers as in chiong a lot but the rank also not very high so many people feel that it’s not worth the effort. Personally, I’m in fact quite happy that I got posted to SISPEC. A part of me was pretty disappointed that I didn’t make it to OCS because I was aiming to be a regular Air force officer. But the good thing about my posting is that being a sergeant is a journey that I’m sure I will enjoy. Firstly, I don’t see myself as officer material. I don’t enjoy being high up in the ranks and doing the planning and talking. I’m more of the type of person who slogs it out with his men in the blazing sun and enduring the same shit along side them. I’m one who enjoys being in the thick of the action. I want to be there for my men personally to inspire them when things are not going right. Yes this is the real Y X Lee.

I have picked up several life lessons during BMT. One of them is that there is no point trying to be the best if you jolly well know you won’t enjoy being one or just simply not good enough to be among the best. A very good example will be the “OCS or SISPEC” issue that bothers most privates that just passed out from BMT. Why be an officer if you know that yourself is the CMI (cannot make it) type. If you only want to go there for the much more attractive pay or simply enjoy 50 men greeting you “good morning sir!” every morning then please think again. And if you (CMI type) don’t get into OCS please don’t go around complaining that you cannot go OCS because SAF is biased or fuked up. I think the only fuked up party will be you. There are so many other people who truly deserved to go OCS but failed to make it for what so ever reason. They are the people who have the rights to complain and not you. The ironic part is that these people don’t whine about it. They just take whatever vocation that they are posted to in their strides and move on.

I’m glad that I belong to the CMI group of losers no more. I’m not ashamed to admit I used to be one of them but lucky not anymore. I definitely have a clearer picture of what I want in my life now compared to 9-10 weeks ago. Like they say, Army is where boys become men. 9 weeks of army life has indeed knocked some sense and maturity into my head. I know if given a choice most of us boys (including me) will not want to give 2 years of our lives to our army. Too bad we got no choice man, might as well let’s start doing it with some pride and try to enjoy the ride at the same time.


*With Pride we lead
~Nil Sine Labore

posted by the man @ 3:33 AM